I am William: an INFP man into art, music, photography, handsome men, Turkish Van cats, 🌱growing and photographing Rhododendrons, enlightened souls, Tibetan Book of the Dead, psychology, cosmology, and more. South Puget Sound. Queerart🏳️🌈
I lovingly nodded in the affirmative, and told him but I am okay now. He said, "oh no, I had no idea how in love you were". We sat together for a while, letting everything wash over us, and sink into our collective soul.
I suggested I make him his favorite meal: Pork chops, salad, mashed 8/x
After a short while, I most gently and quietly told him, "well, this is what you did to me when we broke up." I was not accusing at all, because I was healed, and happy to have him now, as a friend back in my life.
Lawrence almost started crying again. "Oh no Bill, is this what I did to you?" 7/x
After a shirt while, I most gently and quietly told him, "well, this is what you did to me when we broke up." I was not accusing at all, because I was healed, and happy to have him as a friend back in my life.
Lawrence almost started crying again. "Oh no Bill, is this what I did to you?" 7/x
adorable, and a keeper!
Well, the day he came over, he told me John had left him. I do not remember if he gave me any details, beyond that. Lawrence broke down crying. I sat with him on my couch holding him, while he cried his eyes out.
It took about 45 minutes for him to be cried out. 6/x
By the time he visited that day, I had totally healed myself, and was happy again. Lawrence (Lonnie) had been seeing a fellow African American guy, named John. I have posted photos of him here.
I am honored that Lonnie had introduced me to John, who I adored. I told Lawrence that John was 5/x
We were so mis matched: intellectually, interests, and so forth, and yet in the end we were a perfect match. Opposites attract. We both were bottom line good hearted people.
He was a very kind person who had a childhood where he saw very little real affectionate love. I was VERY affectionate.
god damned tell me this???" Well, having self educated myself over the years, I can only imagine how conflicted and uneasy he may have felt knowing that his boy friend (now ex) was related to him from slave row. I had a LOT of learning to do, as you can all see.
ANYWAY, back to the photos. 4/x
enjoyed the sex, and let him knock himself out. But I was young, VERY insecure, and emotionally fragile.
SIDEBAR: I later learned that his Grandfather shared my name, and had reddish hair. Yeah, we likely had a common Irish ancestor. When I learned this, I again came at him, "Why didn't you 4/x
Though he had dumped me for a flakey blond disco twink living in Richmond BC, he still was coming over for sex with me on a regular basis.
I was in love, and it would tear me apart every time he left. Hence my lashing out. Not my proudest moment.
Looking back, I should have chilled out, 3/x
I will never forget the look on his face. A little smile, because he did not know how to react. Then disbelief came over him, and he said, "Ah Bill, oh no, I can't believe you said that." I really did not comprehend what destructive dynamite I was playing with, hurling a racist slur at him. 2/x
"Lawrence Odell Bennett"
These were taken in July 1982, in my Casablanca apartment.
Our breakup in 1975 had gutted me; I came unglued, and now realize that I had a nervous breakdown. In our final fight I lashed out at him, "then stop acting like a nig*er!" 1/x
Kodachrome transparency, scanned.
these years. He had been such an jack ass of a father, that I had no desire to see him. I would only do so when my mom would nag me, "you should go see your father."
I did like Alice, though. In the end, she gave him the Karma knock out blow he so richly deserved.😂 2/end
"Buckenham Palace, London"
Until I saw this slide, I did not realize that my dad and his new wife, Alice, went to the UK in 1970. She was a travel agent, so it was a working tour. I had next to zero contact with him during 1/x
Kodachrome transparency, scanned.
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these years.
He had been such an ass of a father, that I had no desire to see him. I would only do so when my mom would nag me, "you should go see your father." I did like Alice, though. In the end, she gave him the Karma knock out blow he so richly deserved. 2/end
"Buckenham Palace, London"
Until I saw this slide, I did not realize that my dad and his new wife, Alice, went to the UK in 1970. She was a travel agent, so it was a working tour. I had next to zero contact with him during 1/x
Kodachrome transparency, scanned.
#photography #Film #roadtripdiary
on a stranger's lawn, and take photos in front of their windows. That said, I am sure glad to have these photos today. Judy, ten years older than I, died of complications related to ovarian cancer surgery in 2005.
She so wanted to live with me, that she reincarnated as my feisty cat, Judy Rae.
"Sister and Brother"
My Sister Judy Rae, and myself taken in the Sea Cliff neighborhood of San Francisco. My sister asked me to take her to stately homes, and I delivered. The dual photo idea was hers.
Now that I see this, it is really gauche to stand 1/x
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Thank you. This is a happy memory, despite a feud my Auntie secretly began with me, later that day.
The first three are German Prussian from their dad/grandfather, while Judy is of sturdy Volga German stock.
My sister Judy Rae is taking the photo. 2/end
"Family and Friends"
My mom, auntie and sister visited me in San Francisco several times. This is from 1991-92.
Seated L to R: Maxine (mother), Beverly (auntie), me, and Judy Kelso. She had been my manager at Walker (extremely good experience). Good memories. 1/x
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Unlike you, I get my news from a reliable source.
No one is allowed to ask me ANY questions until I have been up for at least an hour.
I would say that that is generally true of most religions. They are all cults of irrational veneration.
France made damn sure that religion STAYS in their own lane, and does not try to run the nation. All countries and populations need to stand up to their voodoo cults, and take control of their own nations and laws.
☝️🧐👇Truth
He is throwing a pity party because his Fraudulence has been unmasked for all to see.
He really should be ashamed of himself and repent, but of course he will not. His wildebeest wifey will not allow him to do so.
You have been through the mill, and back!
Three dozen hugs from me, to you. Plus Maxine the cat will make over you.
pass the barf buckets and leave your wallet at home
#Rhododendron 'Ginny Gee'
This one grows into a horizontally spreading mound. When it blooms, it is becomes a singular mass of flowers.
🧐I need prune this one back this year.
April 18, 2024.
#Gardening🌱#Art #Photography #Gayartist #SignsOfSpring
sure seems that way. and meanwhile, the gun lobby and their republican enablers rake in hundreds of millions in blood money.
oh, the witch doctors would come out of their cult headquarters, and using the phenomenon claim the end of the world, and demand money.
Listen to Kit Kat. They want to envelope you in love (and perhaps get a treat during the envelopment).
#Rhododendron 'Starbright Champagne'🎌
Two more shots of this unusual six-pointed star shaped flower, with delicious raspberry jam in the center. ⛩️Hybridized by Frank Fujioka, a master rhododendron gardener on Whidbey Island.
April 18, 2024.
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#Rhododendron 'Snowbird'
This midseason flower is highly scented, filling the corner of my yard with sweet scent.
April 18, 2024.
#Signsofspring #gardening🌱 #photograghy #GayArtist
#Art
#Rhododendron 'Kiwi Magic'
This mid spring flower is pure Art! A real highlight in my spring garden.
April 24, 2024.
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I have never seen this. Striking!!!
#Rhododendron 'Snow Queen'
This one is rare, in that the flowers have a heavenly scent, against a deep cerulean sky. I planted this one form my late mother, outside the master bedroom window. April 23, 2024.
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