Terra Wilder

Finally playing Teenage Exocolonist and nobody told me it is princess maker poker. I had high expectations and it is meeting them.

Waning on the idea of selfies because I'll always look the same.

Does anybody else feel afraid to be more fem because your body doesn't match it

Upper gums

Me in a manic episode: we could start a paramilitary of the proletariat and overthrow the trillion dollar military police state with a bunch of like traumatized mentally ill queer people who also need to fight or else they are freeloading the labor of their brothers and sisters at arms.

Like you're biting at the inside of your mouth

Leftists need to step up and make militias where we suicide bomb fuckin wallstreet or whatever instead of being pussy bitty little babies.

I ate it

I know things about gender, You wouldn't Believe

I'm actually a brain genius tyvm

I'm pretty much correct about everything but that also makes me evil oopsie

Like it is just a lot of strangers calling u a pervert. Baseline that is like pretty kinky kinda.

Honestly if I did just remove all my lists I could see and follow TERFs to get off to everything they say like it is smut because now I'm capable of this

Not being able to tick off exclusions from lists means I have to open the floodgate of miscreants or other one time slip thoughtless boymistakes

One of my favorite artists on here got flagged by aegis and I'm sad. He did quoteskeet a quoteskeet thread about being hot with a nude that probably wasn't flagged but also he has a beautiful cock to be fair

My psych med change has just given me like a needling pain in my head and I guess I'm riding that out for a week to see if it changes.

Ahhh, at least upwards of eight!

I will never be a perfect person and it makes me infuriated

I won't have enough money to have the body I want and I'll never be natural even so.

Never good enough. I can't please anyone especially the masses. Myself. I'll never be any archetypal ideal besides twink if I work out.

I just wanted to be a woman

You'd double follow me if you fucked my ass fr

If each and every one of you fucked my ass then you'd understand what I bring to the table

I might be a shell of a person but at least you can hear the fun beans rattle inside when you shake me

Unsex me!

Nothing matters, puke and spit everywhere who cares baby

Putting me in a zoo would fix me

Extremely mentally ill below mid naturals but I'm not thin enough to justify their size and small cock weirdo gender woman, campy disco mob wife moto gf

They like grumpy goblins, I love them. Puke up rat bone queen

Dress moding

If I can't have an agp moment in my fit I know it doesn't have the gas

Mocking a person's passion is to cut into their essence while smirking

In certain societies the role of the mentally diverse as seers and holy people gave them a status to basically tell everyone off for how they're being fucking awful

And by venting into the internet how fallow our politics are, in a grotesque self important reverie I feel I am embodying this role

Clonazepam was supposed to sedate me but it has awakened my wrath and discontent

Personal politics showboating is just vanity in clout. It is an excuse to become more insular until everyone is hyper paranoid to slip up and therefore can't challenge anyone to do better because you are sentencing them to social death.

No meaningful activism can ever be done online. Online will always be about self preservation, preaching to the choir, and providing a simulacrum of in person activism by said preaching to the choir.

It is a cheap distraction. We are a sub community of a sub community of a sub community.

Like the level of leftist theory and discourse on here is absolutely vapid. We repeat the easy to swallow passive truisms but when it comes to any kind of liberatory tactic that involves not isolating people instead of going through problems to mutually improve and strengthen the ideology.

Read the latter part of this thread or eternally be damned to reactionary politics that will allow for no advancement of any political movement.

Terra Wilder @terrafie.bsky.social

Like it is a big moment of growth in a person for radical justice politics to distinguish between ideological ableism versus someone that said something abelist.

Like you can not be a racist but still say racist things. You don't have to be an ideological racist to be racist.

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But the lapse in online social justice and patience to see like somebody say something flawed once and branded an ideological racist or abelist is absolutely batshit.

Now a bunch of people think I'm an asshole for the wrong reasons.

God forgive me for being cognizant I need to always do better.

So having the self awareness to be like, ok I'm flawed and I grew up in a society that made ableism and racism the status quo, I like everyone else has to work to deprogram that.

Like it is a big moment of growth in a person for radical justice politics to distinguish between ideological ableism versus someone that said something abelist.

Like you can not be a racist but still say racist things. You don't have to be an ideological racist to be racist.

It is like some "why do you even want to do this, you already look fine, you don't need to, you pass already" bs

Like I still feel insane looking in the mirror and seeing tracheal cartilage or my weird half developed boobs fml

Yeah, hugs are legal

Like virtually none of you fuckers know me aside from like four of you. But cast your stones, pass your judgement, like you know who I am from some shit posting and complaining. God fucking damn it.

But otherwise and 75% of the time you're either new or your vibe is too mentally ill to get any grace before being listed as something you factually aren't and would crusade with indignation and fury to fight against (ableism)

But there is some truth to like the paranoid anti user listing people or just the top down ostracizing.

Like the big posters all validate who is normal and with their friends, if you get lucky they'll contact you to apologize or explain yourself before blacklisting.

Whatever, I'm going to beat Infinite Wealth after being harangued by my gf about which gender affirming surgeries she thinks I shouldn't get, and also my diet, and also my behavior, and also how I should see myself. Treating me like a stupid fucking child.

I'm so fucking done.

Sorry, as I feel slightly more ostracized I am now obsessing over it and my general disdain for humanity in spite of vowing my subservience.

And I am mostly talking to myself in a niche. As an individual saying controversial ideas about being more self critical and metered I have no sway.